My ferret Kai died yesterday... I feel like losing a son, he meant so much to me. I don't care if this sounds weird, because it's true. I understood Kai. I love Kai.
He always was there for me, you know? We trusted each other, and I loved him so much...

I feel so stupid for not noticing how bad he looked. He was way too thin and his teeth were very bad. I feel like such a bad person right now. Maybe I didn't
wanted to see it... but still...
damn it.
I hope he's with his best friend now, who died 2 years ago. It's all I wish for, it's okay if he's not with me if he's back with him.
You know what Naruto always claims, right? ' Protecting someone you love makes you stronger'. If you ignore the sappy part of it, you realize it's actually true. I've always felt that, anyway. I protected Kai, with everything I had. I did things I'd never do, because I'd be too scared, but for him I did it all.
Damn it. This is hard.
I hope you're happy now...Kai. Mommy loves you.

Very much.
And I always will.